Taking my breath you crushed away my purity
And here now you stand staring at me...
While loosing my self
all to your serenity
Y did i not use d instru that lies above in my head...
N now here i lie all lifeless,contented of your jilts n betrayals
With a sly smile of freedom from all these materialistic feelings...
Will come bck some day wen the almighty will order me and assure me that i will never see you again...
When he will assure me that you no longer need my presence in your complete life..
N here wid my last breaths in your arms, in your life
This final adieu to the life that i hve longed and craved for...
ALL my LiFe....

#feelingNUMB&LIfeLess

Ephemeral Euphoria

Drowning in this sag of emotions, I saw a faint flicker of hope

To see you again, To feel you again, To start afresh…

Lost in this mesmerizing dream of mine,

I felt the supple touch of yours fingers clung in mine..

The concavity of my lips turned into an interim smile..

Every drop of the rain abandoning my skin after touching me for a while

Gave me the ephemeral elation and contentment.

Having my eyes closed I could apperceive every moment,

You holding on to me , and then leaving me like a deserted kite in mid air,

Tears rolling down my cheeks carrying a smile concurrently..

Craving that these eyes could always remain closed

For I can live in this vulnerable and unfulfilled dream of mine forever..

Or they open at the egress of all this materialistic desires,

Where I can sprawl lifeless , contented and complete in a perennial joy....forever.....

Hysterical Feelings

Giving in myself to the depths of your love, I feel so complete..

I will never give up holding onto you

Life may bring ups and downs for us

But I will always devise that harmony in us.

No matter how much it may hurt me,

I am never gonna let loose this perfect bond between us.

Its not that I am stubborn to be with you

But I have realized that you are the only one for me.

And I am not with you becz it will always bring happiness to me,

Rather I am with you for eternity for facing all this heartache with you.

The pains that you give me are a gift of your love

Which tests my love for you

And I Promise you that I will get through all of them always, all my life..

My love for you is explicit and doesn’t need any reason to hold on

I have already given myself to you in every way possible

Now its completely on you, whether you break me into pieces

Or keep me brisk in your heart ….

I have always failed in the tests fearing about the predicaments,

But I have full faith in my love for you.

And this time I am not going to flounder in the dark..

Rather I will always be mesmerized in this feeling of being with you.

My true happiness lies within being with you

It lies within having your promises of holding onto me.

And I am not going to make you feeble cuz of my stupidities..

I love you for everything that you have given me in this terse duration

Thank you for making me realize what true love is and giving me the strength to sustain it..

I love you my shona… and will always be the way you want me to be…

Perpetual Bond Between ""us""

Weeping for you in your nuzzling grip , I felt so obscure
Befuddled whether I should smile for being treasured by you
Or poignant about the way you disregard my feelings.
These lethargic ways of yours show me your antipathy for me.
Am I so inept to hold onto your love ?
This melancholy always decimates the feelings and time that we expend.
And along with your despondent mood, I feel so paralyzed to make things work out.
The magic between us seem to evaporate with these clashes.
Baby, I really miss being with you those few days that we have been together,
An unending and unreal world of ours, where we dwelled.
I really want to abrogate this fake fight of ours.
And return to a world full of passion, affection and love;
Want to cherish the same attachment that we share, 
which is vanishing in a delusion.
Can I please enshrine your warm hands on my damp cheeks, fondling to make them dry?
Rather we can drench ourselves in the rain as we always used to be when together.
Can I have that divine feeling of your breaths touching my nape ?
Can I feel that endeavor to make each other feel loved and adored?
Why are we loosening this strong strands of beautiful and eternal love;
The magical love in which we befell and which we were destined for.
Make me feel the same affection and togetherness that we meant to share;
In the same drizzle, make me feel a deluge of your love.
Please quit acting so cold, which you are not,
Break free your tides of emotions to me
For I will just hold them deep in my heart, holding you in my eyes forever until they close.
Skip the lousy episodes in your past, that made you so stone hearted;
We are here to compose a book of mystic love, understanding and togetherness
So does some small episodes really do matter?Make me feel your love.
Grim events existed for a logical cause, To make you and me to be ‘us’.
Please don’t impair this wonderful bond for the sake of something that is feckless.
I wish I could shriek these feelings to you ; And make you realize what I am yearning for.
Right now , please hold me within you, deep in your soul
Lets wipe the slate clean and start all over again and fall in love all over again
Because you captivate me with your charms and I fall for you every moment I breathe
I will make you feel the charm that still exists, but you just need to trust me and feel it.

Give me a reason to live again..
Forsake all history and fill me in your senses , so that I can resurrect and live In you forever..


Till I close my eyes......

TRANSCENDENTAL HEARTTHROB ‘U’

Your love for me is so very ebullient and sprightly,

Even when the naïve and ludicrous rationale prevail;

You yank me towards your tender and affectionate arms

Embracing me rigidly yet delicately

Placing your mushy and compassionate lips on mine

You captivate my heart and my mind

And take me to a world of us

Which inhere neither you nor me, but of a tenacious firm notion of ‘We’.

A world which you always say is inchoate, but which rather is extant

And which gets to gasp only a skimpy few moment

I don’t want to defy your decisions and fight with you

I want to wallow in your life but be a patron in your decisions.

I don’t acknowledge the trust for you

But deep in me, I know that this trust on you is indestructible.

Even if I acquiesce for some petty point,

Deep in my heart, I always conform to you candidly.

You are the one who loves me earnestly

Yet you are the one who hurts me invariably.

With your incredible , irresistable charm you concuss me into believing you

And I just see through you so transparently.

Loving you is all I ever had; the only thing that seems real

And having you around just drives me crazy

The best emotion I can ever feel.

THE INBOUND PARABLE

Blinking in the dark, I felt abhorrent

Like a lost rover, wandered in nebulous crowd

Trusted the mercenary and felt fleeced

Never knew the right path, still went on and on.

In a hope of celestial probity.

But here I am now, totally lost in my fantasy

Of possessing a hollow survival.

In an illusion of owning the skyline of coup,

Rather thrown in a swamp of solitude.

No one to forecast the upcoming predicament,

No one to share the joy of intimacy.

In a rational world of prejudices,

I’m Lost in a hidden dark cave of ambivalence.

If I could breathe some air of my own existence,

Instead of infusing the lousy stagnant smothering fumes;

I might be contented in my own world of ecstasy ,

Or Landed on any solitary land of apt ambiance.

Roving across this anonymous milieu,

I crave for my most cherished fable to come true.

One day… to come true…

AMNEMONIC SOBS FOR LIFE

Listened to your cries and I became sloppy for my own sobs.

Sensed your need of grabbing your contused heart from the infernal bonds

The chains that you held onto till this juncture of your life;

The chains that made you bleed until you die of cynicism.

I wish I would have never taken your hands in mine,

Cuz’ the scars of your bruises are marinating me steadily.

The contagious vibes of your agony is tormenting my soul into fragments.

And these fragmented chunks still aspire to retrace a path back to my old golden miseries.

This stagnant life pleads for another chance to thrive,

Either with these strangling breaths of yours or a reincarnated nameless life to start afresh.

His cajolery for holding onto me sways me to stall my moving steps

I wonder how high can this wall of prorogue be built

How long can someone hold onto someone with their blandishments

Mere sweet flattery filled with spurious emotions and love.

I wish if things could be changed , I would rather go back and alter your days of yore;

And succumb my existence to your mythical being.

TRANQUILITY OF THE RETICENT MOURNING

Your mere presence made my life so beautiful and spry

Yet this spring of frisky romance was to die.

Being mortal, yet I let it slip from my memory,

That there’s an expiry not only to our bodily existence but also to our poignant emotions

Lamenting over the forthcoming days of wailing is futile

Rather smirking over the past cherished moments is pragmatic;

Eyes brimmed with tears of sweet love notions

And sighs in remembrance of the intimacy that we shared.

The reminiscence of your spellbinding love still lies within me

Bringing a camber on my fragile lips which still carry your soft touch.

The ecstasy of being yours is incomparable to any contentment and sanctity

The beatitude of bestowing my entire existence to only you has its own level of vivacity.

I won’t cry anymore over this final adieu

Rather I would live every moment of this serene ambiance filled with your presence.

SURREPTITIOUS MOMENTS

Remembering  the way we kissed,

The way you held me deep in your arms

The nostalgic feeling of getting suffocated in your arms

Those midnight talks, and your kiddish puns 

Makes me relive those moments again

Moments which I have kept cinched deep beneath my memoir.

Moments which made me complete,

Which made me feel loved like a lover,

Nurtured like a baby , hurt like a girlfriend 

And respected like a wife and banked on like a true best friend.

You think that I flinched away from those moments,

But I still live in them in disguise.

Searching for the same aura I felt within you,

The warm and licentious violent love of yours still haunts me in my dreams.

I can spend this entire life of mine living in this prurient and salacious charm of yours.

Unnoticeable feel..

I loved your eyes
ALso the way they looked at me
I loved your gentle touch
The uniqueness of your feel...
I still wanna know how it feels like
To lay carelessly in his arms
While my broken heart is healing day by day
Making me smile in his old golden memories

U r a permanent part of my broken empty life
Yet u r unaware of this bitter truth
I love you more dan m allowed to
If only noticeably u knew.
Thinking abt you makes me cry
Makes me cry each n every moment
But now m helpless, Standing all alone 
In a lonely street holding your hands,
Dose hands wich were once mine...
And Now i m just rest behind with their feel.. 

I wish you cud know one day
Dat evn my corpse will stay waiting for your last glimpse of love
I wish I cud b in your arms dat day
And just whisper dose Three magical words on your lips..
I just wish I cud..!!:'( :'(