Acquiescence of abandoning the Abandoned

Days pass and brings those vexatious memories back again

The feeling of sharing you with your diabolical vagueness.

Appearing to be crystal clear in their invisible robes

Mocking me of not having you even when you're mine.

This feeling aggravates my desolation

Abandoning me in a clique of strangers.

The feeling of not possessing you disowns myself,

It flocks my tiny little head with innumerous possibilities.

Why couldn't I have you first ; arises sometimes,

But the dubiety of this false hope slaughters my inner conscience.

Finally locking myself in a room full of me,

I found that I don't yearn for you anymore.

You would come looking for me someday, I'm sure,

But we don't belong here, I don't belong here.

May be these tears will haunt me all my life,

But the contentment of convalescing from those blurry devilish memoirs makes me live

Makes me breathe in a blurry but aerated milieu.

I don't have to keep running  from those constant chasing shadows anymore.

Yes, I dont crave for you anymore,

Because I know I deserve a better life with a better someone.

I deserve my part of love, my part of the feeling of possessing someone.

And when you get tired frisking for me,

Return back with those empty feelings that I had all my life when with you.

Because this time you are the one Abandoned!!

Sometimes, it's better to let go, than to suffocate yourself in a clumsy ambience all your life.

Cuz you never know when it's time for the longing wait to end;

And you may overlook it, because you are busy in your tangled world.

Free yourself, from this tangled world and foresee the coming boons that are planned for you.

CEASELESS WAIT OF THE EVERLASTING JUNCTURE

An awaited desire of finally grasping that old sweet cheerful voice

That makes me live again

The voice of my heart couldn't cease those shaking hands

And there we were again

Articulating with a vigorously loud but silent voice

Voice of our hearts which we can just feel, can't hear

Heavy breaths flowing through the veins fast

Silence made me feel those lips which were once felt

Deep inside, my hands were again complete clunged in yours

Finally when about to hang up without moving our lips even an inch to utter any word

Realised that something was still unheard and unspoken

Through the fibres no matter how much feelings were conveyed

But still couldn't clutch all of those precious moments.

May be a lifetime is too small to feel each other again

It got proved that life is too small , not to live

But to live and spend every moment of it in your arms

But ending up with each other would have given an endless satisfaction

Still thinking and conveying the same heavy warm feelings

Couldn't stop the stubborn tears to fall down.

Didn't say even a hi, but an entire lifetime was planned and spent in those few minutes

Because with you, time ceases , this broken heart still skips a beat

And then, coming back to the real , which actually feels like a nightmare

With a heavy voice and a deep breath, acting to be formal

I start my next unending wait to hear that voice again

A wait that might never come to an end.