FINALLY FREE

Disheartened by all the atrocious sobs of the closed ones

Confused about my whereabouts

Lost my reason of existence

Finally reached my supreme destination

My baffled heart got crippled

Knowing that the ultimate was my delusion

Finding myself lonely in this garden of corpses

Kept wandering lifeless yet breathing

Finally found an apt place to lay my living corpse

Gasping some last-minute fresh air

Hibernating myself in an indefinite long silence

In an expectation of fulfilment and thinking of those childhood sweet dreams

Which turned out to be fake ..

Last drops touching my cheeks and I’m free…

Free from all these materialistic desires…

At last finally free…

My Last breath in you

I had to let go this unadorned strings of memoirs

Breathing in these was strangling me to extinction

My sobs couldn’t entice the tenacious feelings of ripping off these delicate strands

And stone heartedly, I abdicated those precious chunks of my heart to the unknown infinity

Bleeding through tremendous pain, my heart yelled

But still those vacant hands were left deserted

Tears dropping through my cheeks mesmerized my days of being cared and loved

By those rigid yet soft hands of that atrocious and angelic figure.

That Ambiguous shadow faded in the dark

Abandoning me like an orphan with the bright light of being adopted by an invisible hope

Telling me these cruel last words,

I will always be there in your heart, alive by your smile

In your soul, alive by your happiness

In your eyes, till you hold these precious drops of water in them,

And in your life, till you remain optimistic and keep moving…

Listening to these , that faded shadow disappeared

Didn’t pay any heed to my last breath and me saying

‘Dear , plz freeze your moving steps , I cant smile because you are taking the reason for it,

I cant be happy cuz you are my entire world of happiness,

I cant stop crying because they are falling in the expectation of you to wipe them as you always did

And you were my optimistic charm’

And here my last words drifted away to him, and till he could reach and grasp me

Yay… till he could grasp, I laid smiling at his face, happy for living with him

And those stubborn tears still on the cheeks … looking at him.. still….

and still..... 

Taking my breath you crushed away my purity
And here now you stand staring at me...
While loosing my self
all to your serenity
Y did i not use d instru that lies above in my head...
N now here i lie all lifeless,contented of your jilts n betrayals
With a sly smile of freedom from all these materialistic feelings...
Will come bck some day wen the almighty will order me and assure me that i will never see you again...
When he will assure me that you no longer need my presence in your complete life..
N here wid my last breaths in your arms, in your life
This final adieu to the life that i hve longed and craved for...
ALL my LiFe....

#feelingNUMB&LIfeLess

Ephemeral Euphoria

Drowning in this sag of emotions, I saw a faint flicker of hope

To see you again, To feel you again, To start afresh…

Lost in this mesmerizing dream of mine,

I felt the supple touch of yours fingers clung in mine..

The concavity of my lips turned into an interim smile..

Every drop of the rain abandoning my skin after touching me for a while

Gave me the ephemeral elation and contentment.

Having my eyes closed I could apperceive every moment,

You holding on to me , and then leaving me like a deserted kite in mid air,

Tears rolling down my cheeks carrying a smile concurrently..

Craving that these eyes could always remain closed

For I can live in this vulnerable and unfulfilled dream of mine forever..

Or they open at the egress of all this materialistic desires,

Where I can sprawl lifeless , contented and complete in a perennial joy....forever.....

Hysterical Feelings

Giving in myself to the depths of your love, I feel so complete..

I will never give up holding onto you

Life may bring ups and downs for us

But I will always devise that harmony in us.

No matter how much it may hurt me,

I am never gonna let loose this perfect bond between us.

Its not that I am stubborn to be with you

But I have realized that you are the only one for me.

And I am not with you becz it will always bring happiness to me,

Rather I am with you for eternity for facing all this heartache with you.

The pains that you give me are a gift of your love

Which tests my love for you

And I Promise you that I will get through all of them always, all my life..

My love for you is explicit and doesn’t need any reason to hold on

I have already given myself to you in every way possible

Now its completely on you, whether you break me into pieces

Or keep me brisk in your heart ….

I have always failed in the tests fearing about the predicaments,

But I have full faith in my love for you.

And this time I am not going to flounder in the dark..

Rather I will always be mesmerized in this feeling of being with you.

My true happiness lies within being with you

It lies within having your promises of holding onto me.

And I am not going to make you feeble cuz of my stupidities..

I love you for everything that you have given me in this terse duration

Thank you for making me realize what true love is and giving me the strength to sustain it..

I love you my shona… and will always be the way you want me to be…

Perpetual Bond Between ""us""

Weeping for you in your nuzzling grip , I felt so obscure
Befuddled whether I should smile for being treasured by you
Or poignant about the way you disregard my feelings.
These lethargic ways of yours show me your antipathy for me.
Am I so inept to hold onto your love ?
This melancholy always decimates the feelings and time that we expend.
And along with your despondent mood, I feel so paralyzed to make things work out.
The magic between us seem to evaporate with these clashes.
Baby, I really miss being with you those few days that we have been together,
An unending and unreal world of ours, where we dwelled.
I really want to abrogate this fake fight of ours.
And return to a world full of passion, affection and love;
Want to cherish the same attachment that we share, 
which is vanishing in a delusion.
Can I please enshrine your warm hands on my damp cheeks, fondling to make them dry?
Rather we can drench ourselves in the rain as we always used to be when together.
Can I have that divine feeling of your breaths touching my nape ?
Can I feel that endeavor to make each other feel loved and adored?
Why are we loosening this strong strands of beautiful and eternal love;
The magical love in which we befell and which we were destined for.
Make me feel the same affection and togetherness that we meant to share;
In the same drizzle, make me feel a deluge of your love.
Please quit acting so cold, which you are not,
Break free your tides of emotions to me
For I will just hold them deep in my heart, holding you in my eyes forever until they close.
Skip the lousy episodes in your past, that made you so stone hearted;
We are here to compose a book of mystic love, understanding and togetherness
So does some small episodes really do matter?Make me feel your love.
Grim events existed for a logical cause, To make you and me to be ‘us’.
Please don’t impair this wonderful bond for the sake of something that is feckless.
I wish I could shriek these feelings to you ; And make you realize what I am yearning for.
Right now , please hold me within you, deep in your soul
Lets wipe the slate clean and start all over again and fall in love all over again
Because you captivate me with your charms and I fall for you every moment I breathe
I will make you feel the charm that still exists, but you just need to trust me and feel it.

Give me a reason to live again..
Forsake all history and fill me in your senses , so that I can resurrect and live In you forever..


Till I close my eyes......

TRANSCENDENTAL HEARTTHROB ‘U’

Your love for me is so very ebullient and sprightly,

Even when the naïve and ludicrous rationale prevail;

You yank me towards your tender and affectionate arms

Embracing me rigidly yet delicately

Placing your mushy and compassionate lips on mine

You captivate my heart and my mind

And take me to a world of us

Which inhere neither you nor me, but of a tenacious firm notion of ‘We’.

A world which you always say is inchoate, but which rather is extant

And which gets to gasp only a skimpy few moment

I don’t want to defy your decisions and fight with you

I want to wallow in your life but be a patron in your decisions.

I don’t acknowledge the trust for you

But deep in me, I know that this trust on you is indestructible.

Even if I acquiesce for some petty point,

Deep in my heart, I always conform to you candidly.

You are the one who loves me earnestly

Yet you are the one who hurts me invariably.

With your incredible , irresistable charm you concuss me into believing you

And I just see through you so transparently.

Loving you is all I ever had; the only thing that seems real

And having you around just drives me crazy

The best emotion I can ever feel.