The Unforgivable Changes

I miss the way we held hands hiding from everyone surrounding us... 

I miss the way we flew to every horizons of the romance...

I miss the way you flirted with me every now and then...

I miss the way you caressed me with warm rigid hands yet giving me a soft touch..

Time flew away taking away all the chemistry..

Or is it just that our pace in life mismatched... 

And we just got flown away with the miseries and obstacles... 

Those beautiful and most cherishable moments once which melted us In them....I miss them...

Why can't we feel each other anymore... 

Why is there this boundary of glass,that we can see each other...

But can't feel.. Cnt hear our cries... 

Nor r we ready to accept this that we are moving apart... 

Being two, why are we still feeling the grim loneliness of having noone...

I want to trace the path back to the same old ways of our love and care...

But I'm lost,broken in the midst of nothing... 

Why can't you Hear my loud cries from my heart... 

I miss the way you mesmerise my inner soul to a heavenly feeling... 

Why cant I change back everything to the previous notion...

I wish this opaque bond turns to translucent someday... 

Where if I touch you with my lips, my heart can feel your warmth... 

Where if I clung my fingers in yours, I feel that generous completeness that I always felt... 

I just wish...(sighs)

And wish....!! 

REPERCUSSION OF DEVILRY

And there I rose above my old catacomb,

To find a new road to the deluding peace and happiness.

Forgot to erase the tears and the iniquitous deeds that I ever had in my antiquity

Corpses don't speak but the deeds don't vanish

And like a torrid mist came around embracing me

Didn't even get an opportunity to even breath an ounce of fresh air

Took me back to the same soggy grave

Where I kept on loosing myself in the swamp

Can't even cry out for my own self proclaimed me to be dead.

And yes then I found that once you embed yourself in devilry,

Not even the Almighty can erase those and not even your future boons.

FINALLY FREE

Disheartened by all the atrocious sobs of the closed ones

Confused about my whereabouts

Lost my reason of existence

Finally reached my supreme destination

My baffled heart got crippled

Knowing that the ultimate was my delusion

Finding myself lonely in this garden of corpses

Kept wandering lifeless yet breathing

Finally found an apt place to lay my living corpse

Gasping some last-minute fresh air

Hibernating myself in an indefinite long silence

In an expectation of fulfilment and thinking of those childhood sweet dreams

Which turned out to be fake ..

Last drops touching my cheeks and I’m free…

Free from all these materialistic desires…

At last finally free…

My Last breath in you

I had to let go this unadorned strings of memoirs

Breathing in these was strangling me to extinction

My sobs couldn’t entice the tenacious feelings of ripping off these delicate strands

And stone heartedly, I abdicated those precious chunks of my heart to the unknown infinity

Bleeding through tremendous pain, my heart yelled

But still those vacant hands were left deserted

Tears dropping through my cheeks mesmerized my days of being cared and loved

By those rigid yet soft hands of that atrocious and angelic figure.

That Ambiguous shadow faded in the dark

Abandoning me like an orphan with the bright light of being adopted by an invisible hope

Telling me these cruel last words,

I will always be there in your heart, alive by your smile

In your soul, alive by your happiness

In your eyes, till you hold these precious drops of water in them,

And in your life, till you remain optimistic and keep moving…

Listening to these , that faded shadow disappeared

Didn’t pay any heed to my last breath and me saying

‘Dear , plz freeze your moving steps , I cant smile because you are taking the reason for it,

I cant be happy cuz you are my entire world of happiness,

I cant stop crying because they are falling in the expectation of you to wipe them as you always did

And you were my optimistic charm’

And here my last words drifted away to him, and till he could reach and grasp me

Yay… till he could grasp, I laid smiling at his face, happy for living with him

And those stubborn tears still on the cheeks … looking at him.. still….

and still..... 

Taking my breath you crushed away my purity
And here now you stand staring at me...
While loosing my self
all to your serenity
Y did i not use d instru that lies above in my head...
N now here i lie all lifeless,contented of your jilts n betrayals
With a sly smile of freedom from all these materialistic feelings...
Will come bck some day wen the almighty will order me and assure me that i will never see you again...
When he will assure me that you no longer need my presence in your complete life..
N here wid my last breaths in your arms, in your life
This final adieu to the life that i hve longed and craved for...
ALL my LiFe....

#feelingNUMB&LIfeLess

Ephemeral Euphoria

Drowning in this sag of emotions, I saw a faint flicker of hope

To see you again, To feel you again, To start afresh…

Lost in this mesmerizing dream of mine,

I felt the supple touch of yours fingers clung in mine..

The concavity of my lips turned into an interim smile..

Every drop of the rain abandoning my skin after touching me for a while

Gave me the ephemeral elation and contentment.

Having my eyes closed I could apperceive every moment,

You holding on to me , and then leaving me like a deserted kite in mid air,

Tears rolling down my cheeks carrying a smile concurrently..

Craving that these eyes could always remain closed

For I can live in this vulnerable and unfulfilled dream of mine forever..

Or they open at the egress of all this materialistic desires,

Where I can sprawl lifeless , contented and complete in a perennial joy....forever.....

Hysterical Feelings

Giving in myself to the depths of your love, I feel so complete..

I will never give up holding onto you

Life may bring ups and downs for us

But I will always devise that harmony in us.

No matter how much it may hurt me,

I am never gonna let loose this perfect bond between us.

Its not that I am stubborn to be with you

But I have realized that you are the only one for me.

And I am not with you becz it will always bring happiness to me,

Rather I am with you for eternity for facing all this heartache with you.

The pains that you give me are a gift of your love

Which tests my love for you

And I Promise you that I will get through all of them always, all my life..

My love for you is explicit and doesn’t need any reason to hold on

I have already given myself to you in every way possible

Now its completely on you, whether you break me into pieces

Or keep me brisk in your heart ….

I have always failed in the tests fearing about the predicaments,

But I have full faith in my love for you.

And this time I am not going to flounder in the dark..

Rather I will always be mesmerized in this feeling of being with you.

My true happiness lies within being with you

It lies within having your promises of holding onto me.

And I am not going to make you feeble cuz of my stupidities..

I love you for everything that you have given me in this terse duration

Thank you for making me realize what true love is and giving me the strength to sustain it..

I love you my shona… and will always be the way you want me to be…