Words unspoken

Words, said and unsaid, thousands of them unspoken, 
Thousands of them said but not meant.
A huge world of feelings that are conveyed just by a single glimpse of eyes
While a still larger world of pretentious lies spoken loud and clear.

Still,unspoken ones hold an ample of our feelings which we keep thinking, 
Wish we could have said, may be the stories and even the destinies would have been different.
And we don't say. We dont say a single one..
Keep wishing for it to get conveyed.. In silence...

Sighs....

The Proposal : A magical bond

Kneeling down was never enough to ask for your company

For the rest of my boring life

Asking your hands was never enough too

For filling up my colourless life with your abstract colours

Thinking of a magical way to ask you from you with no denial

I ended up deciding of being just me.

Taking your warm and rigid hands in mine, shaking in mild nervousness

I kissed it as if I will never get the second chance to do so.

Holding you close to me, entrusting myself in your arms,

Feeling your hands holding me tight through my waist

I slowly whispered some few words which worked on me like a magical spell whenever you said

" I love you. Life was always an incomplete ballad, with an incomplete composition

You are the one who made me write the next few verses and

Helped me play all its strings filled with your love and care.

The colours of yours magical touch, turns everything musical

Bringing peace to my restless soul.

Without you, I feel like a dead corpse still breathing of no reason

You hold on to me at all my extremes, bearing all my childishness and stupidities

Just like my parents did when I was a kid.

You recognized the inner child in me even when I was hurting you

Kept pushing me towards achieving my dreams

Stood by me when I was low and scared in the darkness of grief.

Brought a hearty smile on my face even when tears were dropping by my cheeks

And changed the reason of my tears from sad to contentment.

Yes you told me that I mean the same for someone as my grandma did to my grandpa

I dont want my story to be a legend, But all I know is

That I need you by my side all my life

I know what kind of a burden it can be for you

But I know you love carrying me like a sweet little kid as you always did."

Before uttering anymore words, all my nervousness faded in the mist around

And I found a shining beautiful ring in my shaky thin fingers

An untold and unexplainable feeling shook me with a joy that I dreamt of all my life

Remembering the same moment right now

It still thrills me with the same feeling I had at that moment.

It hasn't been a long time since it happened , but yes ,

The time that I have spent with you is priceless, unending and magical.

Happy propose day my sweetheart.

May this love of ours grows with the coming years and

I keep feeling the same thrill all throughout my life.

BrOkEn DrEaMs !!

Dreaming like every other girl of the special someone like her father, 
Grew up with a strong faith of a loving and caring life partner..
But when you find your caring and loving dream was all fake, 
Loosing all hope of finding the special someone... 
Broken, hopeless wandering among the woods, 
Finally finding your prince charming amongst the dark..
The drizzling gloominess still couldn't shake your faith of finding the right..
On the way of reaching your sparkling destiny, lost your ownself... 
In the dark devilish shadows..
In search of a path,every other mirage seems to be the one...
You may even fall for a mirage, so original it does look...
The search never ends...finally remembering that the dream was broken... 
And when broken realities are never fulfilled...how can a broken dream be... 
Tired and exhausted came back tracing the path full of tears... 
Some dreams are meant to remain unfulfilled... 
Some dreams are meant to be incomplete...
Deciding not to dream is not a solution may be...
But with every other dreams being broken, the trust get shaken leaving scars...
Which can't be omitted...
Reminding of those broken dreams which once were felt to be a reality...

FAIRYTALE LIFE

Dreaming the entire span about a fairytale life

Ending up nothing but disappointments..

Planning our lives not lesser than a movie;

But life brings with it always the most simple and mere disappointments..

Designating it the way of destiny and the acts of the Karma

We start indoctrinating and adapting ourselves as now we're mature

The tree of life keeps growing up and the adventures and dreams along with it

Since childhood coming across the saying of facts being stranger than fiction

We end up living a simple and boring pathetic life

Life is filled with so many treasures and we keep on hunting it

With a desire of finding something valuable

Instead of giving importance to the present treasure, we keep running after the next

This greed pays nothing but regret at the end of our mortal lives.

But we always forget some few things that we are gifted with

Some few things which are priceless

The selfless love of our family , the warmth and care when our friends' fight

The first touch of your little siblings when they entrust you to help them lead their lives

The sacrifice and love of our partner.

Realizing this at a later stage may content us that finally we know it

But then there is no time left for revealing our feelings and showing the same back

Each and every moment of our lives is stranger than the fiction

It's just we can't feel them

Because they're not loud or are not always spoken

We become ignorant to the small feelings of our heart

We can't feel the tiniest of the little things that people do for us

Yes, I may be unhappy cuz I don't have as many friends as the person next to me

Or I don't have people to speak up my heart

But I am gifted with the most priceless things that one can ever have

The feeling of being me, the completeness

The individuality that noone can share with each other.

Each and every one of us lead a fairytale life

We don't have to wait for our prince to come and take us

Nor do we have to wait for a beautiful princess waiting for us

We all are cinderellas in us who can't be distinguished in our simple psyche

Nor do we have to dress up like her using a magical wand on a chariot resembling a pumpkin

Its our heart that speaks about us being special

Stop complaining about its simplicity and start living it like a princess or a prince

And acknowledge every boon that you have.

I too am...Cuz I know that I'm Special..

And for me, my life is the most wonderful fairytale one can ever imagine..

Keep smiling...!!

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Acquiescence of abandoning the Abandoned

Days pass and brings those vexatious memories back again

The feeling of sharing you with your diabolical vagueness.

Appearing to be crystal clear in their invisible robes

Mocking me of not having you even when you're mine.

This feeling aggravates my desolation

Abandoning me in a clique of strangers.

The feeling of not possessing you disowns myself,

It flocks my tiny little head with innumerous possibilities.

Why couldn't I have you first ; arises sometimes,

But the dubiety of this false hope slaughters my inner conscience.

Finally locking myself in a room full of me,

I found that I don't yearn for you anymore.

You would come looking for me someday, I'm sure,

But we don't belong here, I don't belong here.

May be these tears will haunt me all my life,

But the contentment of convalescing from those blurry devilish memoirs makes me live

Makes me breathe in a blurry but aerated milieu.

I don't have to keep running  from those constant chasing shadows anymore.

Yes, I dont crave for you anymore,

Because I know I deserve a better life with a better someone.

I deserve my part of love, my part of the feeling of possessing someone.

And when you get tired frisking for me,

Return back with those empty feelings that I had all my life when with you.

Because this time you are the one Abandoned!!

Sometimes, it's better to let go, than to suffocate yourself in a clumsy ambience all your life.

Cuz you never know when it's time for the longing wait to end;

And you may overlook it, because you are busy in your tangled world.

Free yourself, from this tangled world and foresee the coming boons that are planned for you.

CEASELESS WAIT OF THE EVERLASTING JUNCTURE

An awaited desire of finally grasping that old sweet cheerful voice

That makes me live again

The voice of my heart couldn't cease those shaking hands

And there we were again

Articulating with a vigorously loud but silent voice

Voice of our hearts which we can just feel, can't hear

Heavy breaths flowing through the veins fast

Silence made me feel those lips which were once felt

Deep inside, my hands were again complete clunged in yours

Finally when about to hang up without moving our lips even an inch to utter any word

Realised that something was still unheard and unspoken

Through the fibres no matter how much feelings were conveyed

But still couldn't clutch all of those precious moments.

May be a lifetime is too small to feel each other again

It got proved that life is too small , not to live

But to live and spend every moment of it in your arms

But ending up with each other would have given an endless satisfaction

Still thinking and conveying the same heavy warm feelings

Couldn't stop the stubborn tears to fall down.

Didn't say even a hi, but an entire lifetime was planned and spent in those few minutes

Because with you, time ceases , this broken heart still skips a beat

And then, coming back to the real , which actually feels like a nightmare

With a heavy voice and a deep breath, acting to be formal

I start my next unending wait to hear that voice again

A wait that might never come to an end.